not..

oh well. i guess things are starting to look a little brighter right now. just hope that i don't ever ever screw up. i guess being paranoid isn't how it's really supposed to be.

this is the first time i'm actually feeling all these extreme feelings. but with this i know you're a special friend :) i'm glad to have ever be so bored that i actually went onto habbo, because i'm glad that i've ever met you. Thanks, for everything. (and get well soon! although you can't see this..ahahas..)

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class politics! yes i know i've said that but, i guess things just got worse. the Arms Race is almost over. well, i'm just SUPER EXCITED. things have been going well for me these few days. maybe i'll bring some luck over? wahaha LOL.

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but still, to some, i guess i'll forever be a disappointment. especially my grades, which has been steadily declining ever since, i don't know when. perhaps i'm not a person who can really study. but singapore is crafted in such a way that, you HAVE to be able to study. which is of couse, totally unfair towards those who're not cut out for it. i see no alternative route. i know the singapore's government is being really good and all, but when we're on a Cruiser without lifeboats, how would we escape if we were to crash into an iceberg? some food for thought.

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perhaps i can never understand how it works. now i know my point of view is actually kinda wrong, yet i'm saying all the right stuffs to comfort others. WHAT THE HELL?! yeah, hypocrisy. i never practice what i preached. this shows that one who comforts others is unable to comfort himself.

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TOTAL SOLAR ECLIPSE! 22nd july 2009. i'm so looking forward to it. i don't mind doing my exam paper out in the parade square, just to witness this phenomenon. gosh i'm so so so excited!