this is just great, i dropped my phone in water, and lost all of my messages. everything's gone now. totally. but no, i won't ever move on. i can't.

IN FACT, i'm seriously considering to study overseas after i'm done with my Os. i really really want to study overseas.

thanks to the reformation of my computer,
looking back now, things seems more empty than ever.
msn history? i could only look at how much of a bother i've been.
handphone messages? i couldn't bear looking at those messages..
11:11pm/am? i've only wished for one thing, ever since i've heard of this.

i guess i shouldn't be expecting anything more than this,
i've learnt that it is never a good thing to be devastated,
every thing happens for a reason.

i will not move on, i don't want to, and i can't. thanks.

i guess i'm just not worthy of anything.

when one avenue closes,
another, opens.

so now i know the feeling,
of blood lost.

feeling weak, i lost my iron tablets, it's somewhere in my room though..

trying to find it..

i swear upon my life,
that all i ever wanted,
was to just be friends with you.
nothing more.

forever hold the dream inside,
a chance to fight another fight..

loving is destroying.

i remember, i once said.

guys and girls, could never be best friends.

because the guy would usually screw everything up.

curses..

Post no. 1,
Untitled.

***

It's been a week now, since i landed on this island with nothing in sight. Painful flashbacks of what happened before sent shivers down my spine, and there's just no way to remove this bottle cap that has kept every single detail in.

My name is Hayden, and this is my diary log, carved upon, as you can see, a piece of wood. I am a survivor of the hijacking of Plane 666, and i knew my one and only vacation in a year would be ruined after knowing my plane number. But i had to risk it, as it is my only chance to get away from the pile of paperwork that never ends. Thinking back, i should never have gotten on board. There were signs.

My watch stopped working that morning, causing me to be nearly late for my flight. An old lady slowed down the entire traffic, as she tripped on some lollipop left by some kid i guess. I was beginning to think about all these as bad signs. VERY, bad signs. From then on this feeling never left me.

To be continued.........

hypocrisy..

but still..

no, don't hate her..

dragonforce concert..

rocks :)

anyone wants a gift that's electronic?
i'll gladly give you a chair..

it was my unluckiest day yesterday..

i freaking saw steven lim at yishun...........................

Big events coming up..

5 Stations
Blood Drive
Prelims
'O' levels
Prom
Cycling from yewtee to class chalet
Class chalet
Overnight cycling at class chalet
Cycling back from chalet
And more..

gotta prepare many stuffs..and hopefully i'll be able to mark all of them off.

and hopefully i'll be able to pass my napfa test this year, since i've been failing them since time immemorial due to my 2.4km run. i've passed this year, so i can't fail my napfa, not this time. Hopefully..

Gotta train my cycling skills, since it's gonna be a long ride from here till chalet.
it was never easy to let go.
i guess that's it for now.

i think, if i'm not mistaken..

I PASSED MY 2.4..for the first time in my life. yes i have failed since primary school..

i really wanted to share the joy with you but..i can't. not anymore..

h-a-p-p-i-n-e-s-s-?

we just have to take in what life has for us.
for without life, we would not be living right now.
so unless you really really wanna die,
accept it. accept everything (everything that is logical).
we can't do anything about anything.
we can't mess with freewill.
what to do?

Random newsflash :
i confess that i am anti christian-beliefs. i do not believe in the teachings of your god. i confess that i am into Satanism. i believe in their beliefs, not their rituals, but their beliefs, for they are opposite of what you christians believe. it is the true state of this world right now. i confess that i do not believe in the existance of god. every one of them. therefore by saying that, it means i do not believe in the existance of the Devil too. because neither could have survived without the other.

Another random newsflash :
Science is our only savior, and technology, our only murderer. Science brings about technological advances. and it will ultimately advance into our doom. definitely. because power is nothing without control. and some idiot will try to blow up this earth sooner or later. Our creator and our destroyer. ironic.

Yet another random newsflash :
Watch Confessions of a Shopaholic, you won't regret it. i rate it 9.5/10 . go watch it as soon as possible.

Yes another random newsflash :
Jumpstyle and Melbourne Shuffle rocks.

Ending speech :
Bye.

perhaps i should never talk to you ever again..
i don't have the right to anymore..

happy 100th post..

a Ring.
it's not a sheer piece of metal.
it's not only a piece of ornament.

it is a promise.
a commitment.
a bond.

the ends, are joined to each other.
it completes the circle.
it takes 2 ends to do this.
there cannot be a circle,
if either side falters.
there would be no circle.
a broken bond.
a broken promise..

i swear that was random.

***

cause i'd rather waste my life pretending,

than have to forget you for one whole minute..

random, again.

***

i lied..

i dreamed a dream.
but now the dream has been taken away from me..

familiar? morpheus said this in the matrix reloaded..or at least something like that i guess..i guess it could perfectly describe my current state right now huh? :)

jogathon tomorrow, first time i'm actually participating due to the fact that red cross has kept me from joining the past 4 years. WALKING. slacking is good.

to end off everything, i hate my mother.
AND my father.

P.S, yes i am unfilial lol.

an illusion..